A Good Number


69 today.  niiiiiiice.

just some random observations from meetings I’ve been meaning to jot down.

went to a mtg over the weekend.  hadn’t been to one in awhile.  I could tell, b/c thoughts of drinking were starting to creep back into my head.  I get like that now y’know?  I “crave” meetings.  I love it.  In the past I would crave a drink. Now I crave going to a meeting.  It was cool too, there were only 4 people there besides me.  nice small meeting.  we all just took turns talking.  When I get too long now in between going to a meeting or talking with my sponsor, that voice comes back telling me I want a drink.  Most times now I still have that voice in my head that says “oh god I want a drink” but then I have another voice that crops up with “no you don’t, that’s stupid” and it goes away.  Well, the more time in between, the weaker that 2nd voice is.  But get back with the program and BAM! (thank you emeril…) it’s back in it’s hole.

the chair of the meeting said something that stuck with me….no matter how low you’ve been or whatever you think is your “low”, there’s always a trap door.  You can always sink lower I guess.  My low wasn’t getting arrested or divorced or a DUI or anything like that.  It was the health issues that finally made me wake up.  That and some family issues.  A low point past that could easily be arrest and/or divorce etc…Thank You god I’m getting better.  And thank you family for waiting for me.

I also wanted to print the promises here.  These can be found starting at the bottom of p83 and into p84 of the Big Book.  I’m less than halfway through, and I’m already amazed.  Just wanted to share.

If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves.
Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us—sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.

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~ by sobriety6923 on October 24, 2011.

2 Responses to “A Good Number”

  1. We think not!

    The promises are amazing, aren’t they! Our group reads them at every meeting…and I’m always amazed that I can still feel them!

    Keep going back!

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