This is Life

When I was a kid I watched a lot of TV after school in the afternoons. Lots of sitcom reruns, stuff like that. For some odd reason I have a memory on one of the sitcoms of a character having to write a paper on the meaning of life. At the time I wasn’t really all that introspective and didn’t write, so I just remember being terrified at the prospect of this fictional writing assignment describing the meaning of life.

Well, I still don’t really have the meaning of life figured out, but I have come to realize that life is about the moments. All of them. All the insignificant and mundane ranging over to the spectacular and ones you hope you never forget. I turn 42 this year, and since I’ll be the answer to life, the universe, and everything it’s making me acutely aware of how I want to spend the rest of it. But back to the point…..

I find myself in random situations in my everyday just stepping out of myself in a fashion and observing the moment, the situation, as a 3rd party observer to myself and I say to myself “This is Life”.

This is Life when you’re sitting through a Cub Scout Pack meeting with your son.

This is Life when you’ve gone through the mundane morning routine and have made it to work and are getting warmed up, then your daughter texts you out of the blue to say “I Love You Daddy”.

This is Life when you start trying to talk yourself into drinking again.

This is Life when you imagine the kids are out of college and you and wifey are going to starting bugging them about Grandkids.

This is Life when your wife is so awesome helping take care of your aging Father.

This is Life when……This is Life when……This is Life when……

But then I go a step past that. Remember the 42 and acutely aware? I quite often feel I’m wasting my life going to work everyday and being away from my family. BUT, it’s a necessary evil seeing how the whole money thing…..well, you know. Anyway, on top of doing the “This is Life” bit, I find myself in situations quite often where I imagine I’ve got $5 mil in the bank. These situations are of the type Even if you had $5 mil in the bank you’d still be doing this…..

Even if you had $5 mil in the bank you’d still go grocery shopping.

Even if you had $5 mil in the bank you’d still get stuck in traffic.

Even if you had $5 mil in the bank you’d still need to get the kids out the door for school in the morning.

Even if you had $5 mil in the bank you’d still need to live the rest of your life.

So, I spose you could posit that the meaning of life is to be a blessing to others, or something like that, and we’ve already gone over the point of life ad nauseum with the whole God or not bit and Divine Creation.

But forget about all that shit.

Life is about the moments. You are alive and living life. Notice the moments. Make the moments. Remember the moments.

Life is Short. Take the Trip. Buys the Shoes. Eat the Cake. It’s not like you’re getting out alive anyway.

~ by sobriety6923 on February 6, 2018.

2 Responses to “This is Life”

  1. The moments are what count. Having gone through all that I have in the past 5 years, I know that I want more moments! More moments of joy, more moments of insane laughter, more moments of adventure, more moments of beauty, more moments of intense love, but how do I get them? How do I manage all of these desired moments while “just living life?” The only insight I have into achieving these moments while still “living life,” requires a change in mindset. I by no means have made this change. I am still full of worry, fear, and stress. I’ve got to learn to let all of that go. If I keep it, I have no capacity to hold the moments, too. With all upon me right now, this is also something I add to my plate. I’ve got to change my mindset. It is so much easier said than done. Just keep chanting: buy the shoes, eat the cake, run the marathon…and all will be right!

    • I used to try to remember to be grateful for 3 things everyday. It didn’t really work out that well, but today I was able to notice 4 moments I was grateful for and they were pretty easy as long as I remember to be in that context.

      Lynyrd Skynard had it right…..take your time, don’t go too fast, troubles will come, and they will pass…..


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